Mondays - always bigger than I imagine

The pictures are from the weekend spent in Yakima, but the post deals with yesterday. Deals with Monday. With an unplanned Monday. A Monday spent at school, at work, at home,missing a study group to spend time on much more important things, watching TV, drinks at Rico's - fellowship at Rico's - fellowship which lifts the heart - sharing stories of life with brothers, praying with men, praying for each other. I love the people God has put into my life, where he has placed me, when he has placed me, how he has blessed me, the tasks he has set before me. Lately the tasks have included among other things waiting - I'm in a period of waiting - I know what it is that I'm to do - wait.

Waiting is not always interesting right away. In fact it's not till I'm rescinded to the fact that I'm going to have to wait that I start to see what it is that is around me. I only know that there are 84 tiles in the Waiting Room 2C at the Group Health Clinic in Federal Way because I've had to wait in there. I only know that there are 9 chairs at Jiffy Lube because I've waited there. I only know that the hot tub at the south street house turns on every 25 minutes because I've waited there. There is so much I don't realize that I'm unaware of till I wait and get board and start to look at life merely to see it as it is. To count the black tiles at Safeway, to estimate the amount of jelly for jelly donuts needed in the US on a daily basis, to gain perspective on situations. To test the heart, and the head. To flush out motives, and desires, and peering into them, seeing if they are sound.

I don't foresee anything changing - rather a deepening of understanding, a grounding and securing. I see it happening without my even looking for it. It is so exciting and scary, and wonderful all at once. Scary is not the right word - how about a peaceful preoccupation, and tense anticipation - not knowing how the future will turn out - but not worrying about it either - not worrying because it is in far better hands then mine.

Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

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